My guilty pleasure~~~

I haven't been on in a few days. Though it nice to actually have things to do beside sit on the computer. This is a commitment I made to myself and by golly I need to fulfill it. I have been reading which is a treat. I love to get lost in the pages of a book and be a part of a story that is no longer something I can experience anymore. At first I get a little shy about telling people what I read almost embarrassed at the reaction of me saying "Young Adult". This is new to me reading young adult for just the pure satisfaction of enjoying it. ( I use to pre-read books for my kids) I've read lots of genres through the years. Woman's Lit,  Murder Mystery,  Political, biographies,  inspirational. I know I took something from everything I've read. Whether its knowing how other women feel, how an autopsy is preformed, how the first Iraq War came about, or how Eric Clapton acquired his first guitar. I've read numerous inspirational books that make me feel good and stick w/ me but nothing, nothing fills my soul like reading the story of boy meets girl, girl meets boy and they fall in love while saving the world. I met a boy and he met me and we fell in love and create our own chaos to make the feeling of falling in love and trusting each other less scary. (not really book material) And now we live happily ever after; that part of my life is over. I'll never have a first kiss again I never wonder about the choices I made because I am truly happy w/ my choice in him and his choice in me. We are content. We are in love. So I relive that experience in each book I choose to read. The more I talk to woman about what I really read I find out something. They read it too. It's guilty pleasure the 30 somethings have in common but aren't really comfortable about sharing. I guess not only has society gotten to us about rearing our children and whether we should be SAHM or working women. It also has crept in to our sub-conscience in what we enjoy doing on our down time as well. I don't do mundane tasks to keep my hands busy. I read and I like what I read. Its may not be self help books and how to's but it helps me in ways that may be unconventional to some. It does help me in my everyday mothering b/c it puts being a teenager in perspective. It gives us something to talk about and it also gives me that quiet and me time; I so deserve. It helps my marriage b/c though I can't have my first kiss again I can get the butterfly, toe curling feeling again in the pages of a book and I can remember the days when all I could do was eat sleep and breath, Him.  And that creates an appreciation for him. And also rewards him too. : ) So, yes I read! I read young adult paranormal romance that enlightens me and feeds my inner teen.